Two in one day

I think one of the reasons I like writing here is because no one seems to read it. I haven't really "announced" that I have a blog and I may just keep it that way for awhile. I have nothing to hide but I'm not much of a "pay attention to me" kind of woman (I'm trying to refer to myself as this since I'm almost 26. I figured I am one by now...)

Anyway. A few things going through my head:

• I'm really excited about the next year, while at the same time, I meet this excitement with hesitancy. The new year is always intriguing for me. Everything is fresh and there's the mystery of what is in store for the next 12 months. At the same time, I hate being disappointed (who doesn't) so I try not to put too much pressure or expectation on any hopes that I may have. As I type this, I know that's wrong. If my hope is in the Lord (like I say it is) and He says hope doesn't disappoint (Romans 5:5) then I have no reason to be hesitant in my HOPE:) I have that word tattooed on my left wrist to remind me to ALWAYS hope. Amazing how easy it is to bypass straight to fear.
• I learned two new things about myself this week. I really like the smell of Warm Vanilla Sugar at Bath and Body Works and I have this strong desire to be outdoorsy. Up to this point, I haven't liked anything vanilla that I've smelled and me and outdoorsy would never be used in the same sentence. I'm not sure what changed in me to cause either of these to show up in my life, but I'm good with it.
• I'm desperately trying to figure out how I can swing it to go to Little Rock the end of January. I need this trip and this time with my Perry family. The one thing holding me back right now is a mandatory meeting that falls during the time I would be there. I called my boss to talk to her about it today, but I still haven't heard from her. It will be really frustrating if I can't go because of a two hour meeting.

Alright. Maybe since I wrote all those things down, I'll be able to get some quality sleep tonight.